My mind.

My mind goes through a lot. From wondering what I should wear to being exploded after studying. If I was able to write everything that I was thinking on this, I would probably lose everyone that I care about. It's sad to think that but it's true. No one I know even knows this blog exists and if they found out it would be like Mean Girls in my group. I would be Lindsey Lohan and the rest would be the people judging me. Not as though they don't already. I want to be free. Tell people what I feel and not think about the consequences. Tell the guy I love that he is a prick and I wish I never liked him to begin with. Tell my best friend that she is doing my head in with her boyfriend even though I am happy for her that she's got such a lovely guy. Finally, tell my family what I want to do with my life without getting told that its not reasonable or it's irrational. I want a happy life but if things go on the way they do, it's going to be a long time before I am truly happy.

School.

It's a hell hole. I hate it. It's ruining my life, to be honest! Only thing I like is that I get to see my friends and the guy I like! I hate the bitches in my year who think I'm ugly and fat and I hate the bitch trying to flirt with my crush when she has a boyfriend. Overall, I can't wait till I leave and my head teacher can eat my dust when I sprint out those doors!

Run up to Christmas!

Christmas has always been my favourite day. Always will be. I love it when my friends suggest that we go ice-skating instead of going to the cinema because it is socially acceptable and we all look well funny attempting to be able to do it. The Paisley light switching on was on Saturday and we all looked so cute wrapped up in our warm clothes, huddling together when it got too cold and getting to mess around to the music and making complete fools of ourselves. The run up to Christmas is the time in the year when I forgive what has happened, enjoy the present and look to the future because we can't stay young forever, something's are bound to change but I want to make every moment count. Even if I am single, haha!

My Life Now.

My life used to be good. My family were friendly and supportive. My friends were full of life and wouldn't let anything get them down and my crush was my best friend. Now, my life is crumbling around me. My friends are starting to show their true colours. My crush is slowly and painfully drifting away from me. My family is turning against me. And I can't handle it anymore! If I could,. I would commit suicide but I'm afraid of death so I'm forced to live my life until my time comes to die. If I had one wish, it would be that I can tell people what I think without getting judged or hurt by their replies and opinions on my thoughts or I wish things would go back to the way they were.

Hate.

Hate is a big thing to me. I don't know a girl well but because she flirts with the boy I like, I hate her! I hate how she's just suddenly came into our lives and everyone instantly likes her! I just wish things would get better.

Duke of Edinburgh Award.

Had my first week at DofE and I love it :D I feel so much fitter and feel skinnier :) Plus there is a cute guy there but I think he has a girlfriend :( gutted so hopefully not! Can't wait to get out the house soon and hopefully I'll spend it with my friends and my everlasting crush ;D haha!

No way.

Over 500 page views :O you guys really like my blog? Well to update you all, I got 6As and 2Bs in my Intermediate 2 exams :D Also ordered my Starkid shorts so they should arrive in two weeks XD can't wait but for now to enjoy being a teenager and to try and survive my fifth year of school :)