My mind.

My mind goes through a lot. From wondering what I should wear to being exploded after studying. If I was able to write everything that I was thinking on this, I would probably lose everyone that I care about. It's sad to think that but it's true. No one I know even knows this blog exists and if they found out it would be like Mean Girls in my group. I would be Lindsey Lohan and the rest would be the people judging me. Not as though they don't already. I want to be free. Tell people what I feel and not think about the consequences. Tell the guy I love that he is a prick and I wish I never liked him to begin with. Tell my best friend that she is doing my head in with her boyfriend even though I am happy for her that she's got such a lovely guy. Finally, tell my family what I want to do with my life without getting told that its not reasonable or it's irrational. I want a happy life but if things go on the way they do, it's going to be a long time before I am truly happy.